The Twilight Zone

I’ve been keeping my feelings at bay on my blog about how I feel right now because there’s so much beauty going on around us and the sun is shining brightly, etc., but I feel like I’m in the freakin’ Twilight Zone.


I love watching this show, but I never dreamed I would be in it myself. I go through my days kind of emotionless. People could poke me with a thousand needles and I wouldn’t feel them. Some stupid second shift boys at work were having a huge fight right next to me and I didn’t give a crap at all. I am so tired of being this way, I just want to feel again. I need change now! I can see why people do drastic things when somebody very close to them dies. Not that I’m going to do anything drastic, I’m just saying I understand it! Life’s too short, and I want mine back! I’m here to tell you, this doesn’t get easier with time, it’s getting tougher, and my Mom and brothers concur. So those of you that are fortunate to have your Dad still, please go hug him so tight, never let him go, and smother him with kisses, and if he gets sick, MAKE him go to the doctor.

P.S. I’m not looking for sympathy, I’m just telling it like it is. And I appreciate all of my friends’ beautiful blogs! It’s therapeutic to read your blogs and see your wonderful photos! Thank you so much! Now I’m off to try to gain some feeling back into myself.